Dickmatized

It means being whipped by the dick
Got you disgusted with yourself for becoming that chick
The chick that stayed with his ass longer than you should
Stayed because the dick was just that damn good

Good enough to have you letting that kneegrow drive your car
Talking about he will be right back because he ain’t going far
Good enough to have  you checking your phone in the middle of the night
Wondering where he is and why he ain’t acting right

Being dickmatized will make you turn a blind eye
Pretending not to see stuff that will make you cry
Acting like you don’t notice the scent of perfume that you don’t wear
Or ignoring his ex’s car in his driveway like it’s not even parked there

It will have you so mad with yourself some days
Because you keep putting up with his lying, cheating ways
You make up your mind to finally move on at last
And here he comes with his smooth talking, pipe laying ass

Dickmatized

My True Essence

Racism...

Racism is very much alive and kicking
It’s like a time bomb that won’t stop ticking
It appears in many different forms and styles
Sometimes it’s even hidden behind smiles
Some of those smiles we see each and every day
Even smiles we trust in some way

There are some people who act as if they are blind
Because they believe racism doesn't exist in their mind
How can they not see that everyone isn’t treated fair and kind
Equality is what's right and should apply to all mankind
Unfortunately, these days, this is not always the case
Some people are discriminated against because of their race

We can’t continue to overlook the racist things we see
And continue to let the racist people get off free
We have to step up and take a stand
Stop letting them treat us anyway they think they can
Join together, heads up and stand tall
Fight until we have equal rights and justice for all

My True Essence

You Didn't Break Me

I knew of you because you were a popular boy in school
We took a class together and eventually became cool
Friends who would talk when we saw each other on the yard
Little did I know our friendship would leave me forever scarred

You needed help to pass the class so I agreed to help you

I agreed to help because that’s what friends do
I trusted you so I didn’t have any reason to fear
I thought you were my friend… genuine and sincere

I don’t know what happened to you that horrible night

Your mood changed and I realized something wasn’t right
But by then it was too late for me to react
You grabbed me and began your brutal attack

You turned into a monster I didn’t even recognize

You didn’t listen to my pleas or my cries
Instead you used me for your own sick pleasure
Against my will you took my treasure

I didn’t think I would ever forgive you for what you did to me

But I realized I had to forgive you in order for me to be free
Free from the shame and guilt of thinking I deserved it
That I deserved to be attacked, raped and hit
 
I still remember the pain you caused me to this today
The wound has healed but the scar will never go away
You almost destroyed me and caused my faith to shake
Even though you hurt me, my spirit you didn’t break

My True Essence

Wish

I wished upon a star
And here you are
The one I’ve been dreaming of
To show me the true meaning of
Love without limits
Fun without the gimmicks
Trust without any doubts
Sex where we lay it all out

You are my knight in shining armor

My smooth talker, my charmer
You are the reason why I smile
A bright smile that can be seen for miles
I have finally found my perfect fit
And I am happy and so glad about it
I wished upon a star
And here you are….

My True Essence

Nothing...

Nothing smells like…
The ground after a light sprinkle of rain
The aroma of strong coffee grains
The scent of a fresh rolled ball of hay
The ocean on a cloudy breezy day

Nothing tastes like….
The orange handpicked from your own tree
The tartness of fresh squeezed lemon with tea
The kick of pineapple juice mixed with a little gin
The saltiness of your lovers’ skin

Nothing looks like…
The sight of a couple walking hand in hand
The smile and confidence of a great man
The joy you can see on a child’s face
The excitement of a little boy in a happy place

My True Essence

Not Perfect

I may not be perfect
But I know for sure I’m worth it
Worthy of giving and receiving love
And all of the other things dreams are made of
Worthy of being treated like a beautiful queen
The queen who loves you and births your offspring
The one who makes sure they are fed and clean
And encourages them to go after their dream
Worthy of the best of you
And ride or die for the rest of you
Even though I've made many mistakes along the way
I give everything I have to give every day
I may not be perfect
But I know for sure I’m worth it

My True Essence
  

Mz. Lady (Mr. Playa Playa's Answer)

So Mz. Lady… you think I’m a playa, playa
I see you are judging me by just my top layer
I think you should dig a little deeper and see
Take some time and really get to know me

Yes... I admit I can be a little cocky and arrogant at times

That’s only because I know how to take care of me and mines
And yes I’m popular and well known around town
But that’s because I’m friendly not because I get around

Yes... spitting game was something I did back in my day

I was young and dumb then so what can I say
But I’ve changed, matured… I’m a new person now
Give me a chance and I will show you how

The playa, playa I used to be is dead

I’m standing here before you, a grown ass man instead
Ready to go with the flow and see where the flow streams
Prove to you I am indeed the man of your dreams

My True Essence