Already Gone

You may as well go ahead and leave

Because you are already gone

Too many bad things have happened

For us to even try to go on

It seems all we do is break up to make up

And it has really gotten old

Too many tears have been shed

Too many lies have been told

You can’t possibly treat me this way

And expect me to still care

I can’t forget about all of the bad things

That’s damaged what we had beyond repair

It not only damaged me and my heart

It also destroyed the we that became us

At this point I don’t know if I will ever love again

I’m too afraid to love, too afraid trust

My True Essence

The Delete Button

You’ve tried to make it work

The friendship
The relationship
Or the marriage
Even though it’s dead
You keep trying to breathe life into it
That’s the problem
You are the only one breathing into it

So…

You keep hoping
Keep praying
Keep reaching out
Keep texting
Keep calling
Trying to be a friend
Like you have always been
The kind of friend you expect in return

But…

You see nothing has changed
No response
No effort made
No apology
Nothing at all
So you start to feel used
Abused
Taken advantage of
Deeply hurt

Then…

You hit the delete button
Deleting the memories
The connection
The hope
The disappointment
The pain
Even though hitting the button hurts
It helps because you are free

My True Essence

If I Could...

If I could be anything, I’d be the one that makes you smile

The one who gets you and understands your style

If I could be anything, I’d be the twinkle in your eye

The one who brings you peace and gives you a natural high

If I could be anything, I’d be your breath of fresh air

The one who will always have your back and will always be there

If I could be anything, I’d be the one you carry around in your spirit

The one who accepts your love openly and does not fear it

If I could be anything, I’d be to one missing piece to your heart

The one who fits perfectly like a sculptured work of art

My True Essence

Your Fantasy

Your eyes, your dimples and your smile
Everything about you just drives me wild
Thinking of you makes me wet
I always break out in a cold sweat
Imaging the things I want to do to you
How I want to make your fantasies come true

Your fantasy is to have another woman in our bed
One who can eat me out while I give you head
Then we both will give you all of our attention
Help you relax and get rid of that tension
Me sitting on your dick while she rides your face
Your dick feel so good, I start picking up the pace

She reaches over and kisses me softly on my lips
I’m kissing her back while rotating my hips
Riding your dick like a bull at the rodeo
I can tell you are enjoying the show
You watching her then watching me
Too bad it’s only a fantasy

My True Essence

You're Mad and I'm Mad

You’re mad…
Because I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be
I’m mad…..
Because I was blind to the things I should’ve been able to see
Like…
How you treated this relationship like a damn joke
It’s my fault…
Because I knew from the start we weren’t equally yoked

But yet...
I stayed
Hoping my insecurities would eventually fade
Instead I let you treat me like a sex toy
Only here for your pleasure and joy
Nothing more or nothing less
You've proven you’re no different from the rest

You’re right...
Being there for you was what I was supposed to do
I’m right…
I should ‘ve loved myself way more than I loved you
More…
Than settling for anything less than what I deserve
It’s time for me to leave while I still have the nerve

You’re mad…
Because I’m finally leaving you
I’m mad…
Because it took so long for me to do

My True Essence