I Am Enough

This piece was written by my friend, DB. I want to thank her for putting herself out there with Confidence. :)

"I AM ENOUGH…..

As I am reflecting on the year 2012, I have had some pretty awesome revelations about myself and one of pivotal one is that… I AM ENOUGH!!

It is quite interesting because prior to moving back to Atlanta in 2010, I never realized that I had an issue with thinking that I was not enough, nor had I ever questioned my self- worth or my value.

It wasn’t until I started on my path as a healer in massage therapy that I tripped and fell over into this abyss of self-doubt….why you might ask?....because western culture does not hold healing of this nature in the same regard as say, they would a doctor or nurse and most assuredly not in the same manner that they applaud and appreciate those that are savvy enough to navigate through corporate America. (By the way, I was once a corporate girl).

However, nothing struck that doubt in me more than the “What Do You Bring to the Table” discussion. Never had a clue I felt on a deep level that I questioned the value of what I bring to the table.  After much pondering, I realized that I felt this way because I had been measuring myself against external things and comparing myself, which is DEATH to the self-esteem….actually it is already in despair, if one is doing such a thing.

The wonderful thing about this realization is that it made me look at me…I mean really assess ME.

This is when I began to see that none of what I espoused above was the problem.  It was me that held those beliefs about me and becoming a healer and having to answer that question exposed what had been lurking beneath the surface, hiding within and sabotaging me on all levels in my life.

 As I delved within and began dispel the myth and unveil the illusion that my ego was feeding me.  I began to realize that we unknowingly internalize small things over time that chip away at our ability to fully embrace and love our true essence.  Although we still operate and function in the world as happy people...it is always this "something" that gnaws at us…. and it is our soul beckoning us to fully embrace it with kick ass boldness and making no apologies for who we know ourselves to be and the power we hold and must wield to navigate our own personal journey.

This allowed me to fully embrace the BEAUTY in me….. the POWER in me and to APPRECIATE and LOVE ME in a way I had not done before….I became conscious and AWAKENED to ME.

I AM ENOUGH….when I show up at the table the TRUE ESSENCE of me is enough. I am not bringing achievements, accolades and other material successes to be granted a seat at the table.

This spiritual being, navigating in this physical body is AWESOMENESS walking. It is the place from which all things flow from me and is created. It is a place of POWER. The VALUE lies within the awareness of and embracing my true self.  It is in this knowledge that I know I AM the asset and I AM adding value to those lives I touch.

I AM ENOUGH… filled up, running over and flowing out to the world with a light full of love."