A Day (Part 2)

We make it to the master bedroom in record time
I’m excited and damn sure ready to get mine
But don’t worry because I plan to take good care of you
I tell you to lie back and let me do what I do

I start by kissing you on your neck then down your chest

I’m rubbing and licking like a woman obsessed
I keep making my way down pass your abs to your things
I linger there a minute while I’m eyeing my prize

My mouth begins to water from anticipation

I’m impatient so I dive in with no hesitation
I love your manly smell and you taste so damn good
I would bottle up this good shit and sell if I could

I take a minute to admire how you’re blessed and hung
Then I start to do that special thing I do with my tongue
You know the thing that makes your eyes roll back and toes curl
Before long I’ve got you saying “Damn I love you girl”

My True Essence

Society and the Black Woman

The way society views the black woman has to end
It has us changing who we are trying to fit in
We have allowed it to kill our hopes and dreams
Because we don’t all fit into the mainstream
We don’t all look like they think we should look
Nor do we follow the rules of their book

Society’s view of us has caused a lot of self-doubt
Stifling who we are and what we’re really about
It makes us believe we must be gorgeous, dumb and thin
Always ready and able to serve our men
Dressing sexy, wearing weaves and tracks
With long hair flowing down our backs

We are seen as sex objects and boy toys
Instead of women of class and poise
Educated, well-traveled and out spoken
Flexible and bendable but never broken
It’s a good thing most of us are resilient and strong
And here to prove society’s image of us is wrong

My True Essence

Praying for You and Running with You

They say bad things happen to good people at some point in life
Some of them so bad it cuts you in the heart just like a knife
We will never know why God chooses the people He does
We can only say He knows best so there is no because

Since I have not worn or even walked a step in your shoes
I can’t understand your pain, your struggle or even sing your blues
I can’t imagine what it takes to make it through each day
To get out of bed when all you want do is stay there and lay

No matter how bad you are feeling you always keep going
With each day, your faith in God is growing, growing, growing
Even in sickness, you still manage to share your testimony, tell of your journey
How you turned it over to Him making Him your power of attorney

I sit back in the shadows and I can see your light shining from afar
I admire you for being the strong, inspirational person you are
I really wish there was something special I could say or do
Since I can’t, please know I’m praying for you and running with you

My True Essence

A Day (Part I)

What would I do if I had you for a day
I’d let go and throw my inhibitions away
Say all of the dirty things I have always wanted to say
Play the sex games I have always been too afraid to play

But first I want a big hug and a slow tongue kiss
So I can show you how much you’ve been missed
I want our tongues to do its own little dance
And keep kissing all day whenever we get a chance

We’d move to the bathroom to a waiting hot bath
Following the bubbles as we let our tongues lead the path
We’re kissing, touching, rubbing and sucking
Before the end of the night we’ll definitely be fucking

As I’m tracing my bubbles all the way down to your joy stick
You stop at my breast to admire how they’re full and thick
You say you can’t help but put one in your mouth
While sucking it, you other hand heads south

All the way down to my sweet hot spot
It feels so good I beg you not to stop
You rubbing on my clit about to make me cum
I’m ready to head to the bed to get me some…

My True Essence

Nobody Like Me

I know you’ve been around the world
And you’ve kissed a lot of girls
But nobody kisses it like me
Nobody misses it like me
To show you how much I care
I’m kissing you here, there and everywhere
Got your mind scrambled like an egg
Even got lipstick on your leg

My True Essence

These Dudes Ain't Loyal

Ladies I tell you… these dudes ain’t loyal
Walking around like they’re special and royal
Playing games with peoples’ emotions and feelings
Getting women caught in their foolish dealings

Being nothing but a no good, slick ass player

Dicking down chicks like they’re a pussy slayer
Laying pipe here, there and every where
Just screwing around without a care

Playing women and not caring who knows or sees

Thinking they can keep treating women anyway they please
Going from place to place passing out babies and STDs
Like a dog walking around with a bad case of fleas

Telling this woman she’s the woman of his dreams

While telling that one he wants to make her scream
There’s another woman across town he calls his Boo
Then you find out the fourth one he’s sexing is You

Ladies I tell you…  these dudes ain’t loyal

 

My True Essence

Orgasm of the Mind

Tonight I really need you
To do what only you can do
Make love to me like I’m one of a kind
Give me an orgasm of the mind
There’s no need for sexing and kissing
No getting nasty, sucking or licking
Just mental stimulation all night long
Our minds creating our own love song...
When we reach the mental level of pleasure
We will enjoy each other’s treasure

My True Essence

Playing on My Phone

Why are you calling playing on my phone
I guess you trying to see if he’s home
So ask for him since you’re woman enough to call
Be bold enough to go through with it all

Instead you holding the phone breathing in my ear

Listening trying to hear what’s going on over here
I don’t know how you got this number in the first place
But you playing on the phone like a child is a disgrace

Yes he’s home with his family like he should be

He’s not thinking about you because he’s here with me
Truth be told, I am not even worried about you myself
So keep right on playing games and embarrassing yourself

My True Essence

 

Mr. Talented... Mr. Smooth

I am honored to know a brother who has such a gift of words
Words that can be felt when reading them as well as heard
I can envision you speaking the words you push with your pen
Writing that flows so well it’s like a rhythm you don’t want to end

Sometimes your words are soothing, mellow and magnetic

Calming and relaxing like a general anesthetic
Other times your words are the best aphrodisiac
Causing one to lose sexual control and not know how to act

Your smooth words have a lot of the ladies wanting you

And wondering if the things you write about are really true
The fellas may not say much but they’re taking notes on what you say
Filing their notes away to maybe use on a lady one day

Your ability to write about anything at any time is one I truly admire

As well as your ability to always motivate, uplift and inspire
I can see how you are moving forward, evolving and growing
So I encourage you to keep your mind turning and your pen flowing

My True Essence

Too Bad...

Too bad I can’t be who and what you want me to be

But the truth is I only know how to be me

The one who despite it all still holds her help up high

The sassy, confident free spirit and loyal ride or die

 

Too bad I don’t do the things you want me to do

But the truth is I live my life for me not to please you

So if I do things you can’t figure out or understand

Let it go and trust I’m doing the best that I can

 

Too bad I don’t say the things you want me to say

But the truth is I wouldn’t have it any other way

Because I sing and dance to my own special beat

I’m just me doing what I do with no need to compete

My True Essence

Throwing Shade

I've been noticing you throwing a lot of shade my way

I usually ignore it but today you caught me on the wrong day

I don’t know what’s up with the little snide comments

Or the unnecessary bullshit, drama and nonsense

I’m confused because I honestly don’t know

What is it that has you hating on me so

I’m sure it’s not anything physical so it must be my style

Whatever it is has obviously been bothering you awhile

So you just keep right on trying to dim my light with your shade

Because throwing shade on my light will eventually cause yours to fade

 My True Essence

Be The Light...

Be the light…
That shines so bright
That motivates others to do right
That inspires one not to give up but to fight
That provides peace in the middle of the night

Be the light…
That brightens someone’s path
That protects them from evils wrath
That guides them through the storm
That blankets them and keeps the warm

Be the light
That will always be there
That treats all people kind and fair
That does not judge or condemn
That stands and prays for them

Be the light...

My True Essence

Resentment… Another Silent Killer

The state of resentment
Not a good place for contentment
Holding onto things I should let go
Allowing them to take root and grow
Spreading unhappiness into my soul
Destroying the very thing that makes me whole
It’s like an anger that never dies
Or a truth fighting to defeat the lies
Letting it go is the only way to be free
The only way to ensure it doesn’t silently kill me

My True Essence

Horny and Missing You

I’m horny and I’m missing you
I need to be sexed like only you can do
I’m frustrated and I need you now
I want you to make my kitty meow
But since I have to wait another day
How about a little phone sex play
I will set the tone to get you in the mood
Talk to you so nasty you’ll become unglued
I will start by rubbing my nipple round and round
Now sit back and listen because it’s about to go down….

My True Essence

My Quiet Storm

You are my quiet storm
The one who helps me transform
To peace when I’m a walking time bomb
The one who keeps my spirit calm

You are my release after a bad day

The one who knows just what to say
To make me breath and settle down
The one who saves me when I’m about to drown

You are my anchor when I lose my way

The one who keeps me from going astray
On the days when I feel like I’m going insane
The one who loves me thru my pain

Thank you for everything you do

More importantly, thank you for being you
Thank you for holding me and keeping me warm
Thank you for being my quiet storm

My True Essence

Racism...

Racism is very much alive and kicking
It’s like a time bomb that won’t stop ticking
It appears in many different forms and styles
Sometimes it’s even hidden behind smiles
Some of those smiles we see each and every day
Even smiles we trust in some way

There are some people who act as if they are blind
Because they believe racism doesn't exist in their mind
How can they not see that everyone isn’t treated fair and kind
Equality is what's right and should apply to all mankind
Unfortunately, these days, this is not always the case
Some people are discriminated against because of their race

We can’t continue to overlook the racist things we see
And continue to let the racist people get off free
We have to step up and take a stand
Stop letting them treat us anyway they think they can
Join together, heads up and stand tall
Fight until we have equal rights and justice for all

My True Essence

You Didn't Break Me

I knew of you because you were a popular boy in school
We took a class together and eventually became cool
Friends who would talk when we saw each other on the yard
Little did I know our friendship would leave me forever scarred

You needed help to pass the class so I agreed to help you

I agreed to help because that’s what friends do
I trusted you so I didn’t have any reason to fear
I thought you were my friend… genuine and sincere

I don’t know what happened to you that horrible night

Your mood changed and I realized something wasn’t right
But by then it was too late for me to react
You grabbed me and began your brutal attack

You turned into a monster I didn’t even recognize

You didn’t listen to my pleas or my cries
Instead you used me for your own sick pleasure
Against my will you took my treasure

I didn’t think I would ever forgive you for what you did to me

But I realized I had to forgive you in order for me to be free
Free from the shame and guilt of thinking I deserved it
That I deserved to be attacked, raped and hit
 
I still remember the pain you caused me to this today
The wound has healed but the scar will never go away
You almost destroyed me and caused my faith to shake
Even though you hurt me, my spirit you didn’t break

My True Essence

Nothing...

Nothing smells like…
The ground after a light sprinkle of rain
The aroma of strong coffee grains
The scent of a fresh rolled ball of hay
The ocean on a cloudy breezy day

Nothing tastes like….
The orange handpicked from your own tree
The tartness of fresh squeezed lemon with tea
The kick of pineapple juice mixed with a little gin
The saltiness of your lovers’ skin

Nothing looks like…
The sight of a couple walking hand in hand
The smile and confidence of a great man
The joy you can see on a child’s face
The excitement of a little boy in a happy place

My True Essence

Not Perfect

I may not be perfect
But I know for sure I’m worth it
Worthy of giving and receiving love
And all of the other things dreams are made of
Worthy of being treated like a beautiful queen
The queen who loves you and births your offspring
The one who makes sure they are fed and clean
And encourages them to go after their dream
Worthy of the best of you
And ride or die for the rest of you
Even though I've made many mistakes along the way
I give everything I have to give every day
I may not be perfect
But I know for sure I’m worth it

My True Essence
  

Just Wait and See...

Wow…
I'm completely blown
How could I not have known
The red flags were definitely there
But a part of me just didn’t care
I only saw what I wanted to see
Pretended it was how it should be
I fell so hard for your pick up lines
So hard I missed all of the signs

Like…

The disappearing for hours at a time
The scent on your clothes that was nothing like mine
The making love to me like it’s a chore
The lady you kept staring at in the grocery store
The arguing so you could get out of the house
The creeping and sneaking around like a mouse
The late night text messages and calls
The stranger living with me within these walls

So…

Since the stranger lying in my bed is you
I know deep in my heart what I must do
It took me a long time to wake up and realize
I don’t have to put up with your awful lies
Lies that roll off your tongue like a pro
One day you will reap what you sew
You will pay for the way you treated me
Karma will handle it just wait and see

My True Essence