Pain of Losing Our Black Men and Boys

I am angry, frustrated and hurt from the pain
The pain of our sons and brothers being slain...

Hunted like animals in the middle of hunting season
Shot down in the streets and killed for no reason

I feel the pain of the mother who loss her precious son
Who can’t believe his life was taken before it really begun

I feel the pain of the wife who loss her lover and soul mate
Who knew he was the one on their very first date

I feel the pain of the daughter who loss the one that called her Queen
Who encouraged her to study, be smart and follow her dreams

I feel the pain of the son who loss his best example of being a man
Who taught him to work hard and to always do the best he can

They will never again get to see the rising or setting of the sun
Or grow old while spending time with their love ones

They will never again get to see the joy that comes with living
Or enjoy another food and fun-filled family Thanksgiving

Their lives taken away because of the mere color of their skin
By racists who have a deep rooted hatred for black people within

Equal rights definitely do not mean there are equal rights for us all
The legal system is corrupt and in need of a serious overhaul

The system has clearly failed when video footage exists of a crime
But yet does not even guarantee a conviction and sentencing of any time
These racists who don’t care about the lives they destroy and kill
Have to pay for what they have done to our black men and boys and they will

My True Essence ©

Just Wait and See

Wow…
I'm completely blown
How could I not have known ...
The red flags were definitely there
But a part of me just didn’t care
I only saw what I wanted to see
Pretended it was how it should be
I fell so hard for your pick up lines
So hard I missed all of the signs

Like…
The disappearing for hours at a time
The scent on your clothes that was nothing like mine
The making love to me like it’s a chore
The lady you kept staring at in the grocery store
The arguing so you could get out of the house
The creeping and sneaking around like a mouse
The late night text messages and calls
The stranger living with me within these walls

So…
Since the stranger lying in my bed is you
I know deep in my heart what I must do
It took me a long time to wake up and realize
I don’t have to put up with your awful lies
Lies that roll off your tongue like a pro
One day you will reap what you sew
You will pay for the way you treated me
Karma will handle it just wait and see

My True Essence

My Hardened Heart

I trusted him with my secrets
The hidden details of my soul
The pieces of life that made me whole...
And yet had broken me at the same time
Disrupted and disturbed my peace of mind

I let him in when there wasn’t even a door to use
I told him of how I was hurt and abused
How I didn’t even like or love myself
How I sold my soul to the devil himself
Since I thought he was different, I gave him my heart
Only for him to use what I told him to tear me apart

Now… here I am a walking empty shell
One with a story to tell of how I’ve been thru hell
I’m too untrusting to even want a friend
Damn sure too afraid to ever believe in love again
Gone are the fairy tales of how love’s supposed to be
From now on I am doing whatever I need to protect me

My True Essence